Christmas Before Thanksgiving? I Get it Now!
With another week until Thanksgiving I saw an ad for Walmart. I don’t know what it was selling. All I remember was kids, dressed in pajamas, running into a living room with a lit tree and jumping on the couch with mom and dad to read a story.
That’s when I started to cry, which is probably why I missed what the hell those kids and that couch and that tree were trying to sell me.
I always get emotional in November. I have since my early twenties for reasons I won’t go into here, other than to say something kinda awful happened at the end of September this one time way back in the day. So November has always seen me feeling this weird impending sense of overwhelm and doom – but not really in a negative way – just a world-on-my-shoulders feeling.
I’m explaining this because I think it’s kind of amazing I’ve been able to channel that feeling into a sense of overwhelm at how amazing my family is, and how I want their lives to be this amazing experience. I want to be a good mother that raises soldja girls (Is souldja girl a real term that is used by actual people? If not, screw it, I made up my own term.) that learn from pain and love life to the fullest. Well, maybe not the fullest, but as close to the fullest as possible without needing medication to function.
Somehow, the Walmart commercial sparked that feeling…and now it’s a downhill slide all the way to Christmas. On the bright side it’s more like a slip and slide drenched with the tears of my love.
How awful does that sound? I’m laughing at myself. Say it out loud. “A slip and slide drenched with the tears of my love.”
Classic.
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Yep – I’m a Joiner!
I get so angry when I see holiday stuff all over in October that I feel desensitized to the whole warm, gooey feelings of the holidays. I need to find a slip-n-slide so I can let my tears flow.
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Interesting imagery. Love ya!